I am not sure where to begin as I think about what I have been unpacking from a life-long of experiences and feeling my way through all the things going on this year.
It has been a doozy, to say the least, all of it.
My memories go back to my crib and I remember a lot. I picked up a pattern of thinking somewhere along the way, where I began holding onto all of the hurtful things that happened to me, with a hope to figure out why and then move on. I knew there had to be reasons why people did the things they did and said the things they said and I was going to figure out all of them. But that plan was flawed. I finally realized I will never know all the why's and waiting for the answers that may never come or creating a narrative on speculation, to ease my heart and mind, made me see I was giving away my power and I was living like a victim. I had to let my hurtful past go. And it makes me wonder if we can all let our hurtful past go?
I think there is a book in me about my life and then I think, what makes my story worthy of mentioning because we all have our shit, every one of us. And it's all relative. What caused me pain, or made me strong or made me choose to live my life the way I do is my journey and we each have our own. We can learn from our experiences, we can learn from each other and I have always believed that we are all connected and creating good when we live from our heart.
I can't completely understand what it's like to be a man, or have a different skin color, or come from a different culture or part of the world, but I can be open-minded, try to be understanding and accepting and be kind to everyone I meet. And that's what I really wish we could all do. I can't tell what anyone has been through just by looking at them, no one can.
I will continue to live like I always have. I believe we can all do our part to make a positive difference in the world. What I have never understood is why people find it necessary to say the gender or the color of someone's skin when they accomplish something. We are a bright and brilliant race of humans. If we keep highlighting our differences how are we going to live as one?